Dormancy & Reflection

I haven't been updating my blog for ages it seems now, loads of things have happened.
Firstly ,here's a post that has been long overdue . On my mind but not on paper .
There's always time and reason for some self-reflection , maybe to get your thoughts in check or finding a pathway for your problems. To keep your errant attributes muted and controlled.
I know that there's a lot for me to be thankful with .

No matter what happens in our lives , we should always bear in mind one thing - that we always have something to be grateful for . The majority of us are fortunate to be with something to be grateful for , but perhaps not insightful enough to realize the gravity of it .

Cheers.

Johor the Eternal .

Right from the very start .. I never regretted joining St John. All the more joining the competition team. I never regretted my sacrifices and I am thankful that what I gained, what I saw , what I experienced , has outweighed my sacrifices. It really is indescribable.

Loyalty is what kept me here , the bond , the friendship .
Not limited to my 4 clown-mates, but the other fifteen clowns now known as team Johor.
Plus the five Ambulance Cadet members . Once enemies, but not anymore:)

Congratulations to Team Johor! You all are champions in our eyes and hearts and minds.
Remember the cheer ,
We are STILL the best
We are STILL the champions
We are STILL the greatest champions.

I wouldnt have missed this national comp for anything :)
PULAPOL is hallowed ground for us , and it still is. It still will be .
Where Johor first lifted their victory trophy for the first time in the new millennium ,
That is the legacy of Johor.
Remember , the cup is material. V.S. Maniam was right in giving us the cups for only 1 month.
It is material. Down the road, you look at the cup . The pewter is cold to the touch.
You think back at those memories still fresh in your mind .
Those warm memories, the blazing passion .
That is what we should hold on to , forever.
We are blessed, Team Johor. We are blessed that we could come together in this way .

All for One ,
One for all.

Hip-hip , JOHOR!

The Journey

25th of April : SJAM State Competition .

This post is addressed, first and foremost to my teammates , who have been here with me .
Next, Team JB - AA,NA,NC, whom we have been training and building an astonishing bond with.
Last but not least - Seniors and trainers. Everyone who trained us, inspired us, pushed us,and woke us up. Division ONE seniors, Present and Past. Team JB trainers, from different schools united for One Cause . And of course, Mr. Perba. For being extra-inspiring.

Well, it ended there for us. Just for now.
I cannot describe the tension in the air that day. When the results were announced that we got second for Long case. That long case which was set up to bring us down. 12 minutes ? And you call that overtime.

Wait, the results haven't been announced yet. Have faith.

Faith.

Faith.

Thank you everyone, for your wishes. Do not be surprised, we did not win.
It is hard to describe to anyone , the pain of losing. It is hard to describe how much it means to us. The pain of losing was not regret . We did not regret. We did our best, and I am proud of you.
#1,#2,#3,#4. Here's your #5 speaking. Rather, we felt grief and anger. Team JB , going onwards without us.

The most painful thing was watching my teammates cry . Our leader , who had done his best.
Number Two , Three, Four . Not just Ambulance Cadet. The whole of team JB. Nursing Adult, Ambulance Adult, Nursing Cadet. The Victorious Ones. They cried with us.
I really cannot describe how it felt. Trying to hold back, giving a smile, but when I saw that, I just lost control.

Thank you for your support :)

My team and I, we'll really miss training with you people :)
I can say right here, right now, I never regretted getting myself into this. I never regretted a single moment of our training . The past few months, especially after district, my life has been centered mainly around St John.

I'll never regret it .
The way we, JB, train , is different. We not only build skills and techniques. We build People. We build Teams . We build Spirits.
Team Spirit.

Lets go way back. Team, we were formed around mid- November. We thought we went well then. We went through lots of hardship together. Training, punishment, talk. Personal problems.
External problems.
I am proud of us.
How much we improved, how much we changed.
Some may have seen it, some may have not. But as sure as hell I have.

We got through district level .
training awaits. I still remember our first ever training at the HQ. We had only met the AA team a few times before this. Some during the Camp , competition and at the first meeting in the HQ.
We didn't know each other . AA , we saw you as really serious people. Except Kok Siew. HAHAHHA :D

NA came a few days later , we thought you girls were like, super disciplined and were gonna be boring XD
honestly!
Well ,we were very wrong . VERY VERY WRONG!

NC came in , after 2 changes of teams. Hey there, we thought you were like NA too :)

2 Months. Here we stand now. I never knew such a strong bond between a team like this.
Team JB, we are the best.

Congratulations to AA !! Sze Hao, Jun Jia, Sau Wei, Kok Siew, Adrian . A great victory ! All the tension before the competition paid off. Keep growing stronger! Sorry we wont be there to be your victims, and yes, Adrian!! Set good cases!! We'll miss kacauing you people, especially JANG:D , Kok Siew, and seeing Sze Hao do his weird stupid cute face X)

Congratulations to NA!! Inn Qing, Chee Yan, Yu Ning , Hui Ling, Ke Xin. You didnt make it last year. This year you came back for revenge, you made it. That's what we're going to do next year,God bless. Perseverance:) We'll miss kacauing you all as well , especially Yu Ning,your voice will get higher and higher the more you scold us back then your whole team will come back her up while Ke Xin tries to calm her down :)

Congratulations to NC!! Yen Yin, Li Xin, Lee Kee , Qian Hui , Wan Fang , Be the first National Champions for NC Johor has ever had:) We'll miss kacauing you GANGSTERS!! And seeing you all gang up on Edwin :P speaking of edwin - WWF , remember the monkey thingy .ahhahahah

In short, we'll miss you all .Try your best : ) and always have faith . We'll be back whenever we can!

Bad things happen for a reason.
God wants you to do something good.

There's a difference to what you can do
and what you can achieve.

Anger is good.
Know where to channel it.

team , it doesnt end here. We are meant for greater deeds.

And team JB, I swear the coolest thing ever was our chant.Passed on from year to year.
@ post office , in the early hours of the silent morning ,
@ yong peng high school , in the middle of the crowd , with everyone watching .
@ the hall , outdoing segamat's lousy and over-done chant.

Who are we?
WE ARE THE BEST.
Who are we?!
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS.
Who are we??
WE ARE THE GREATEST CHAMPIONS.

All for One ,

One for All

All for One ,

One for All


All for One ,

One for All .

Hair-Raising

Had a weird dream last night.
I went for a haircut.
Yes, a haircut, not at the barber near Yassin ,but at this huge place with lots of mirrors.
TWO people were cutting my hair. Or was it a whole team of people?
Think of it as surgeons in an operating theater, that's how it was.
They were whispering in hushed tones , as if they'd made a mistake.
"I'm sorry , but your hair is too thick. We're trying to thin it" , they said as they turned me towards the mirror.

To my shock/delight/surprise/amusement, my hair was like, POOF. Like, a lot of hair. Like the Tokio Hotel singer.


Well , kinda .


So I told the fella to cut la like this and like that.
And I.....





Eagerly sat up awaiting my haircut.

seriously, I just sat up in bed . 4.30am.
then i said to myself , " damnn"




Hair will grow, and hair can wait :)

*wave*

Hello , hello , hello!
I am extremely busy .
Since the victory , more commitments await!
Team JB training!
Very lame post!
No time!
Going off!

to whom it may concern and i am sincerely concerned about.

I'm sorry about the choices I have to make for now. I'll say now that i'll choose commitment over going out with friends. don't get the impression that I have no regard for my friends anymore. No. Friends, you are still in concern. its just that I cant always be there for you . Its just that i'll have to make sacrifices and pay the price . It's going to be a few months. Adaptation comes with time . For these few months we will live with this new lifestyle. or rather, LIFE.


Over the past few months I've experienced the feeling of making sacrifices and forgoing things . Even more so to those who have been in this for longer.


Ask yourself , If you cant take the pain of sacrificing , can you take the pain of losing ?
and if the pain of sacrificing is too great even now, how are you going to face the cruel world ahead.


Steel your spirit . It does not mean a Heart Of Stone.


i'm sorry :(

Make Damn Sure

First of all , my blog has been some piece of sh*t lying here undisturbed for like , quite some time.

I didn't blog about Chinese New Year, Happy new year! best of luck for the year of the tiger.
It was a fulfilling holiday , in a way I can't really and won't bother to explain.

What have I been doing lately? First formative exams just ended today , and like, who gives much of a damn about it but yeah it's still an exam and I feel compelled to at least..

pull through. At least prepare a bit compared to those who didn't prepare at all.

Its in our nature that we need CONFIDENCE for everything we do. Well , at least if you desire results . Sometimes all that's missing is that little bit of confidence. The secret ingredient. the CHEMICAL X. << WTHH!!

In my opinion , there are 4 levels of confidence.

Lack of confidence.
Confident .
Supreme Confidence.
Over- Confident.

Obviously SUPREME is the best la. Supreme confidence only comes with thoroughly knowing what you do. like, make damn sure of what you're doing. It comes with practice, and experience.

Lets at least be Confident.

Waxing lyrical .

What's in a name? that which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet;

:)

ZZZT .

On the 25th of January , A group of 5 school-age students barged into a quiet little barber shop near Jalan something ( next to Restoran Yasin near Thistle LA.) .

They demanded to have their hair cut BOTAK.
The owner of the establishment , Mr. ____ was surprised at their request but had no idea what he was up for.


They helped themselves to the papers and made themselves comfortable.
Unfortunately there were only 3 chairs so the other 2 were walking around and making the barber uncomfortable.
After a hasty job on the 2 remaining customers, the barbers invited us to take our place in the hotseat.







The video surveillance equipment managed to pick up two videos .

We are One.

Sometimes all we need in life is Direction . With that , a little push in the right way , sometimes, a big shove .

we need our friends around us to keep giving us those little nudges to keep us going forward , and it takes ,

a real friend.

to really push you . push you to ensure you go in the right direction , to ensure that you keep going .

Never take your friends for granted. If you regard someone as a friend always have this thing called TRUST.

TRUST that what your friend is doing is best for you. TRUST that your friend still TRUSTS you. TRUST that your friend still feels the bond of friendship . TRUST that they wont let that friendship fall apart.

As a leader , one needs to be strong. One needs to be that person who is willing to give the push to his whole team .

and the team needs to TRUST the leader.TRUST in him that HE will lead them in the right direction that HE will know what to do .

Finally you've woken up , enlightened , awakened.

Our calling is now. Right from this moment , full speed ahead.

With desire burning in our hearts and skill at our fingertips.

Go for Glory and Greatness.

Not GG. XD